Ups and Downs, FUCK!
I hate how my life can go from so happy to so crappy in the matter of a week... I was so happy a week ago and now its all gone to crap. I love him so much and I know that he loves me, and I guess thats what I dont understand. I want to be with him so bad but I cant... I have to be patient, he has to be happy and things will be better after he goes and does the things that he needs to do, but that doesnt make it hurt any less. I love him so much. I dont want him to go away again.
Another 10% day
Well I made just barely enough at work today to make a car payment.... so thats good, I have to call in the morning and hope everything will be okay. Yeah... blah, but it was a 10% day at work.... I think I made more than 10% on about 2 tables... yeah... Hopefully Ill be in a better mood later.
I wanna crawl in a hole
This week fucking sucked, thats easily put! Work was terrible, I didnt make crap all week, tomorrow I have a car payment due and if I dont make it then well.... shit the repo man might find me and take my car which means i will be totally screwed over! But there is nothing I can do, I am trying to save our apartment but its becoming a lost cause and I am trying to get my car in order..... but I dont know which to do first. I dont have enough for either of them right now. I was to just crawl into my bed and cry for a long time. I dont know whats wrong with me, I dont know why I wait until I am over my head in all this shit to do anything about it and when I do its too late. Grrr! I have a day off work tomorrow, but I NEED the money, but I havent had a day off in like almost 3 weeks, so maybe Ill work tomorrow and have tuesday off... I dunno... I need to go before I lose it.
Survey Time.... who-hoo!
AJ is the best!
LAYER ONE:-- Name: Anne Margaret Lamberti-- Birth date: May 18, 1984-- Birthplace: Plano, TX-- Current Location: Arlington, TX-- Eye Color: hazle-- Hair Color: Brown-- Height: 5'6"-- Righty or Lefty: RightyLAYER TWO:-- Your heritage: Italian, Norwegian, uhh yeah.... Im a mutt-- Your weakness: AJ-- Your fears: being alone-- Your perfect pizza: Papa John's with pepperoni and mushrooms, or Pizza Hut Stuffed Crust with Chicken-- Goal you'd like to achieve: To be happy
LAYER THREE:-- Your most overused phrase(s) on AIM: soooo....-- Your thoughts first waking up: What time do I have to be at work... ok 20 more mins-- Your best physical feature: Eyes-- Your bedtime: whenever I get tired-- Your most missed memory: not having money problems
LAYER FOUR:-- Pepsi or Coke: Dr Pepper -- McDonald's or Burger King: Wendys-- Single or group dates: single-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea--Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate!!!!!!-- Cappuccino or coffee: Frappucinos!
LAYER FIVE:-- Smoke: never! -- Cuss: I have a pretty bad mouth-- Sing: in the car--Take a shower every day: I try to-- Have a crush(es): Ive always crushed on AJ-- Do you think you've been in love: Absolutley-- Want to go to college: not as much as I used to, but I'm still going to continue-- Like high school: I liked it while I was there, but I would never want to go back-- Want to get married: Of Course-- Believe in yourself: Most of the time-- Get motion sickness: Sometimes when I am reading in the car, but rarely-- Think you're attractive: Depends on what I am doing and wearing-- Think you're a health freak: Never-- Get along with your parent now: More with my mother than my father-- Like thunderstorms: They are awesome!-- Play an instrument: Clarinet, attempted piano, took a class and played: viola and percussion, didnt do very well in those
LAYER SIX:In the past month . . . -- Drank alcohol: yup-- Smoked: No.-- Done a drug: yup-- Made out: yup -- Gone on a date: Ja.-- Gone to the mall?: I work in a mall -- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Cant say that I have-- Eaten sushi: Nada-- Been on stage: no-- Been dumped: no-- Gone skating: no.-- Made homemade cookies: Yes-- Gone skinny dipping: nope-- Dyed your hair: No-- Stolen anything: NopeLAYER SEVEN:Ever . . .-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Sex! Hehe its a game u play in the car-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: I believe so-- Been caught doing something?: No-- Been called a tease: Nope.-- Gotten beaten up: Nope.-- Shoplifted: No-- Changed who you were to fit in: why would i do that?
LAYER EIGHT:-- Age you hope to be married: before Im 25-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3, AJ and I want the first to be a boy and the other 2 to be girls. The boys name.....? Girls Summer Anne and .....?-- Describe your Dream Wedding: Just something memorable and beautiful-- How do you want to die: Something quick and painless-- Where you want to go to college: Im at UTA for now... but I want to transfer, not sure where now-- What do you want to be when you grow up: honestly, Im not sure-- What country would you most like to visit: Germany
LAYER NINE:In a guy/girl . . .-- Best eye color: green-- Best hair color: brown-- Short or long hair: whatever looks great-- Height: just a bit taller than me-- Best weight: doesmt matter as long as they are happy-- Best articles of clothing: Suits and Tuxes... jeans and shirts are of course great too!-- Best first date location: a park with a hill and a creek -- Best first kiss location: see aboveLAYER TEN:-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 2-- Number of CDs that I own: never counted-- Number of piercings: 5 holes in my ears-- Number of tattoos: 0-- Number of things in my past that I regret: I dont want to count
I hope things look better now AJ, I love you
FREAKIN SWEET!
Its almost 3am and I am not sleepy! grrr, I hate this, AJ is fast asleep and I am sitting here watching Wild On on E. Im not mad at him by no means, its just wierd because we are never tired at the same time on the same night, I went to bed early last night and he stayed up... yeah OMG.... I made $200 today at work, and whats great is I picked up both of the shifts, I wasnt even scheduled. Thats the most money I have ever made working... so yay! Well IM gonna go play a game or something
Icky Icky!
Just finishing up cleaning the apartment, it was nasty. When we went to the store we got some swiffer wet things, AJ used 3 on the kitchen alone, and I used 2 in the bathroom! Icky! I have to go to work again tomorrow at 11:30, I am going to tell the manager that I need to work a double, because I need to make at least 100 bucks. Hopefully with a double I can make more than that tho. If I cant work a double for some reason, then I will ask to just stay all afternoon. I am still pissed about this afternoon. Well on tuesday, I did make 160 bucks, but that still doesnt make up for the 5 I got today. Anyways, I am hungry, Im gonna go find me something to eat :)
Rain, Rain, Go Away!
Its another rainy day in good ol A-Town again... blah! I worked for just a few hours today, I really didnt want to, I am so tired, and I knew I shouldnt go to work. But I was like what the hell am I going to do until 5 when AJ gets off work anyways.... so I decided to go in and pick up. I made 5 dollars after tip out and paying for the discount program. Ugh, it was pointless. oh well, it gave me something to do for a few hours. Anyways, I am going to look up some recipies before we go to the grocery store tonight.
I want to sleep!
Well once again I am not sleepy.... AJ is watching a thing on the History channel about D-Day and when its over, we might go drive around or something. I am tired, but Im not sleepy... anyways.... I didnt have to work tonight, I got one of the new girls to pick up for me. I made pretty good monry at lunch only, so I was like yeah... go home now. I really need to start working a lot, but its like I either dont want to drive there or I dont want to stay once I am there. I think I am going to look for a serving job somewhere in Arlington, or anything closer, I enjoy RFC most of the time, but there is a lot of bullshit that pisses me off way too much. They are totally unfair with sections, the people who work there are 2 faced, and some of the managers treat people like dirt. Now I know that my brother might not be the nicest person in the world, or he might now be the best host, but he deserves more respect than he gets, and sometimes I feel like I am not getting any respect either. What sucks tho, is that I am going to have to give a 2 weeks notice, If I do get a new job.... I dont know if I am going to be able to wait that long. Mer is really getting to me about money, I am doing the best I can... I love her and all... but sometimes she is really rude. She said "Sometimes you bite off more than you can chew" yeah maybe I do, but damn, I am trying. Just because I am not constantly freaked out about money, I just try to work things out.... doesnt mean I dont realize whats going on. Ok yeah....
Hmm where can I work....
Olive Garden on S CooperFridays in N ArlingtonTrail Dust in N ArlingtonPapadeux in N ArlingtonPapadeux in Fort WorthI could always go back to Spaghetti Warehouse in Dowton Dallas.... except I think that is just about as far as it is to Grapevine... well its closer, but no...I dont know, I hate filling out applications and crap....I might go pick up some apps, and see how this next week goes then decide if I am going to actually apply or not. Or... I could work at RFC during the day or night only and get a job somewhere else working days or nights... that has regular hourly pay.... dunno.... yeah
good night guys!
I fell down the stairs
Well, I ended up getting an unexpected day off on Wed. I was supposed to open at 9:45, but that didnt quite happen because I sprained my ankle on Tuesday night going down the stairs at my apt. Yeah, I was laughing at myself and AJ was like are you okay, and then I realized that it kinda stareted to hurt. Well AJ went to turn in some applications and we were at Barnes and Noble and we ran into Angela and Brian and they invited us to a movie. So we went to see Day After Tomorrow... well we were about a quarter of the way into the movie and the power went off and they had evacuated all the movie theatres. Becuase there was a tornado really close to the mall, yeah no beuno. But we missed most of it except for some nasty rain. Well we had to run in the rain to get to the car.... not a good idea, because of my ankle.
Oh well... right now I am watching fraiser and playing on AJs laptop, hes asleep, he didnt sleep very much the past few nights, and Ive been taking naps after work and stuff... so yeah. I think I am going to go play around on some websites, maybe make myslef sleepy...?
Sorry, so sorry!
Hey guys, sorry I havent had a real update in awhile... ive been wokring a lot and just having fun with the little bit of extra time I have had. I havent had a day off since last tuesday and I wont have another one until next tuesday. I am pooped. I have a nasty blisted on the top of my foot and it hurts really bad when I wallk... so yeah... no beuno. I have had good and bad days at work in the last week. Thursday I worked a double and i made 130, and Saturday I ran food made 175... yay....
I didnt make it Arwyns wedding on Saturday because of work.... I was sad, but Im sure it was beautiful.
I am going to go with AJ to get some applications for a second job. He makes enough at the Math Clinic but he just wants some extra money. This is a really boring update so I am just going to stop it here.
