A One-Sided View

One Hell of a Week

So I guess lets start with Monday...
James had asked me to pick up Monday morning because they apparently it was going to be busy. I came in at 11:30 and was cut by 12:30. Angela had to work a pm and I was still debating if I wanted to pick up at night or not so I just hung around with her... I was her shopping buddy and then we went to see Hitch. By the time that was over it way about 4ish so she did a little more shopping and then I decided to head home. I just wasn’t in the mood to work. So I sat in shitty traffic the whole was home because dumb me left during rush hour.... grrr. And the whole was home I was thinking about my feelings towards someone and how frustrated I am with myself and our "relationship" because 1. I didn’t know what it was and 2. I couldn't keep lying to myself about my feelings. I called him on Sunday night and said I need to talk to you, its very important. So he called me later on Monday night and I went to Arlington and we talked. I was having issues, like usual, with speaking when it comes to my feelings. I eventually said it... I'm still in love with you and I can’t lie to myself anymore. There it’s out in the open now. I also told him how frustrated I was because I didn’t know what were... if we were just fuck buddies or more than that. So in a short version... were dating. Which means that we can both see other people, I don’t know if I could deal with him seeing another girl. I think Id get hurt. We'll see.... I was like why can’t we just be normal?? He said, well I think this is the most normal we have ever been. I guess he’s right... but its still so frustrating when you know you love someone and can't have them is your.... however, I wouldn’t think of that as needy, I do love him.... ok done with that....

On to Tuesday....
I worked a pm since I didn’t make any money on the supposed "busy" day, so I went and picked up. I was gonna meet AJ and Ryan at Saltgrass, so I told Phatima that I would take her home since it’s basically on the way. No big deal. We stopped at the chevron we always stop at on the way to her house. I get in the left hand lane which is straight or left, because right after the light you have to take this little road to get to 360 (where she lives). Well the light turns green and this guy in the lane next to me turns left in front of me from the fucking center lane which is straight only! I hit his rear driver’s side door and fucked up the front right side of my car. He immediately drove off so we followed him, got the license plate info because we thought he was driving off. He ended up pulling into a parking lot and we followed. He got out of his car and said "What the fuck happened?!?" I was like excuse me; you tell me what the fuck happened. He claimed that my lane was left only and his was straight or left.... I argued with him knowing it was his fault and I was right because I take that way every time I take Phatima home from work. He gave up. I asked him for his insurance stuff and he didn’t have any because he said it was "his moms car" aka code for I don’t have any. I got a phone number from him and gave him mine... I think his is fake, because I’ve never gotten anyone to pick up when I call him and he still has yet to call me. Stupid... I didn’t give him my info because he didn’t have any, and he could have filed a claim on me and I couldn’t do anything about my problem! Grr again! We left, and I called Nancy and told her about it. She wasn’t mad or anything, she wouldn’t have any reason to because it’s not my fault.... but still its annoying. I went on to take Phatima home and went to Saltgrass with AJ and then came home... that’s that for Tuesday...

On to Wednesday....
My mom had called me on Tuesday night because her father is in the hospital in Oklahoma City and she needed a way to get up there since my aunt had already left. I talked to my brother and he said he would drive from Denton if I got up there. I didn’t really want to drive right after being in an accident. So we went up there. It was really awkward because I really didn’t know my grandfather. I haven’t seen him since my mom had a heart attack when I was in Junior High. So I felt really out of place. Jeff and I spent most of our time in the waiting room. We left after a little while because my mom had told me that she didn’t want to stay too long so she didn’t freak out and start crying uncontrollably. We drove home, my brother was his usual selfish self... and it was annoying to drive with him because he kept bitching about everything. We finally got home about 9ish and I took my car to Nancy's and they looked at the damage from the accident. Nancy doesn’t think its worth enough to even cover the deductible so we might not even make a claim unless that guy calls anytime soon.... its not bad, its just a pretty issue and the passenger door makes a terrible sound when you open it....

Thursday....
I was sleeping great until I got a phone call from my Aunt about 1pm saying that my grandfather had taken turn for the worst and we needed to get to OKC ASAP. I had no money, mom had no money... we ended up borrowing some money from Donna for gas to get us there and back. It took us forever to leave because we had to wait till we knew we had money and yeah... we didn’t end up leaving till almost 3:30 or 4. We were about 15 miles outside of OKC when my Aunt called again at 6:30 saying that he had passed away at 5:10. My mom didn’t want to go in the first place, so she wanted to just turn around and head back. But she said that we needed to come... so we did. It took us forever to find the hospital because the directions she gave us were totally fucked up... so we went back the way we had come the previous day and got horribly lost because we missed the exit and then took a road that went parallel to the road we were looking for... a terrible mess. We finally got there my aunt was pissed at us because we took so long. I was then mad at her. Oh well. We didn’t stay that long because there wasn’t much we could do... plus the guy from the funeral home was waiting to take him there. So on the way back we stopped in Norman went to Joes Crab Shack and then met my friend Leah at Starbucks, which was a highlight of the trip. Then we went straight back. It was totally dark because we left Starbucks about 10pm... So we got home about 1 am and I came home and went straight to sleep...

Now for Friday...
I didn’t do anything at all until AJ and I went to see King Fu Hustle.... which is very funny! I loved it, and plus, it was actually a good movie. We came back to my apt and Jen and had invited a bunch of people over. So there went my hopes for having any fun... he left about 2ish, I think, and then I went to bed.... good day

Saturday....
I traded Rich for his double because I needed the money like crazy bad. I know Saturdays suck, so I wasn’t expecting much. But I really didn’t want to work almost 12 hours! I got there at 11:30am and was walking out the back door at 11pm. People who got there at 3 were finishing and leaving before me. I totally bitched out Brandie, the host, in front of some tables and I really didn’t care. It was bullshit that I was still there just getting tables when there are people who have been there 1/2 the time I have that are cleaning their sections so they can get out of there. I made decent money, not what I would have asked for, but oh well...

Sunday...
After working almost 12 hours I woke up and opened at 9:30am. It wasn’t a bad day... after work I went to AJs grandparents’ house and his grandfather and Donna changed my oil because I had to drive to OKC one more time for the funeral today. Plus it needed it anyways. It took us awhile but when it was all done, we had dinner and AJ, his grandmother, Donna and I talked for a bit and then he had to leave to go tutor. So then I headed back to Plano because I had to get up early this morning for a long drive.

Today...
I woke up a little bit late but I just took quick shower to make up for it. I went to my moms picked up her, tom, and Jeff and we made out way to okc. I had to speed most of the way because we got a late start because we had wait for Jeff. We got the funeral home after driving the wrong way down a street because stupid map quest gave us the wrong directions. Once again... total weirdness. I am kind of angry because I didn’t know him at all. People kept talking about the things he had done. Apparently he worked for the USAF at Tinker Air Force Base as an engineer and he even had a patent for a safety compartment on the B52 bombers. Did I know this.... no. He sounded like he was a really great person but I had no idea who he was and he had no idea what I did. His 2nd wife, my step grandmother, is mostly to blame for this... and that makes me so angry. She’s done a lot of wrong things to my mom too, which also bothers me. His step grandkids knew him better than I did. Grrr! Well so we left there and made our way back one last time. My brother kept bitching about how he was hungry but he had no money. Stop bitching... just ask if someone would buy you dinner and let that be it. I don’t respond well to bitchiness or whining. So we got back... in one piece... barely. And now I’m here and I don’t want to get in my car if at all possible tomorrow, but I will because I have to pick up at work because I still need money for rent.

Alrighty kids... Hope all is well in your part of the world. Love to all!

~Auf Wiederschrieben!

posted by Annie @ 9:03 PM