A One-Sided View

Life is Wunderbar, and fucking wierd!

Oh wow how life changes. I called Donna on Saturday night when I got off work to talk to her. Well I was telling her all of my problems and she had told me that AJ and Sam had split up. I was floored, and I knew that he would probably need a place to stay this week because of finals and stuff and/or until he can gets his own apartment. I told his mom to let him know that he could stay with me and stuff.... and I had mentioned why dont they come to RFC for lunch on Sunday.... and well they did It was kind of awkawrd at first, but it got much better! I got them 50% off of course because they are pretty much family anyways... I spent a lot of time talking to them, I didnt want them to leave either. Aj had told me that they split up and I asked if he was okay and he said yes. Then I said that he could come stay with me, and he said okay. So yeah, right now I am sitting in my living room on his computer while he is sitting accross from me doing his take home final! Wow... if someone would have told me a week ago that this would happen, I would not have believed them. I am so happy right now... It all just fits.... I cant explain it. And I know that everyone is going to be like what the fuck is wrong with you two. But as Dr Hunt and Mer said... you arent doing this for everyone else, do what makes you happy... and we are! I missed him so much... I missed how he made me smile and laugh all the time. I could go on about this for hours... but I wont.
I am done with all my finals. I took Music Lit today and it was actually quite easy.... I had listened to the pieces for about an hour before the exam and AJ was giving me ideas on how to remember all the things... As I said, it went well. Yesterday I had theory, percussion and my barrier. Theory wasnt that bad, I was just really tired so I couldnt remeber a lot of easy shit. Percussion was probably the best test I have taken this semester. And my barrier... oh lord. I was fine when I was rehearsing with Toni, my accompainist. But when I started playing, high notes werent coming out of my instrument, plus my bottom jaw was shaking because I was getting really upset with my clarinet. I was about to cry. So my pieces were good.... on the parts that came out but a lot of the 1st movement is high fast stuff. And well it wouldnt come out..... Dr Jessup said she knew that something was wrong but she couldnt stop me. My scales were fine, I had to replay one... I got G, F#, E, C#.... I was hoping for all sharps and I got it. I hate Flat minors! And I didnt get any! Yay. Then the verbal was easy.... Dr Jessup talked to me afterward and just said that I had to play 2 pieces for my jury in the fall and everything will be okay. So yeah...
Ok back to AJ for awhile.... I missed him so much. I missed talking to him more than anything. He told me that whenever we went to Fridays. And when he was at RFC he was like theres so much that I want to talk to you about. So yeah when we were at Fridays I had asked him if he was really okay and he said yes...and he said something and I was like thats okay... and I put my hand on his and he wouldnt let go. I have smiled so much since Sunday night. I know that he needs his own place, and I dont think he feels like he is being a burden, although he had mentioned something about it and I told him he wasnt.... Honestly, I really dont want him to leave, I love him being here.... it all feels right. I want to get things right this time, I dont want to get this fucked up again. I missed him way too much. I know we are supposed to be together, we wouldnt keep coming back to eachother if it wasnt meant to happen.... I cant stop saying how much I have missed him. I am sitting her watching him do his exam and all I can think about is how different my life was even 3 days ago and how much happier I am with him sitting here studying at my apartment....

posted by Annie @ 8:46 PM